It was 21st September; I felt this unusual pain in my tummy. It was like high tides; mounting with full aggression and then sinking as a calm wave. The frequency increased. My mother in-law rushed me to the nursing home. Death would be less painful; I was howling and throbbing in that superlative pain.
It was all wet…. My water bag burst!
I was hurried to the delivery room.
“Push! Push with all your strength.” “You have to concentrate and give a strong PUSH!”
I collected all my physical, mental and emotional strength and PUSHED….
My baby! My angel! World of my happiness has finally out in this world!
The umbilical cord connecting you and me was cut….
Leaving behind the comfort and safe abode of her for nine months; from womb to our home.
Soon you experienced all the discomforts and comforts of being alive! You cried to tell- “feed me.” You cried to say- “clean me.” And you smiled to the comfort of my lap; and you giggled to see your dad.
With your tiny feet you took the first step. How ecstatic I felt when the first time you uttered “Ma”! And each day you grew; adjusting and adapting into the world outside me.
“Push her!” “You have to PUSH her into the school bus…..”
You were sobbing and clenched me. This time it was even more painful….i was not howling but something inside me was dreadfully worried as if a part of me was splitting but again I pushed you out of the comfort and safety of your home into a new world….; I pushed you into this world which is meant for the survival of the fittest.
And the brace between you and me was broken……
Step by step, class by class you raised yourself. You bloomed and equipped yourself to conquer the hearts. One after another you filled the shelves with achievements. You made our cores inflated with pride! Praises, fames, love and respect, all you earned.
“Push!” “Push her…..she needs to go…..”
Ahh! Again for the last time, I have to push you…. Will I be able to survive the pain this time!? Irrespective of the pain and my fate; I’m going to push you into the world of your dreams. Go carve your destiny, live your life as you want. The whole new world is going to unfold for you…. Fly away from the nest because you have to scale the heights and fly beyond the sky! Go! The beautiful life is waiting to embrace you!
And I’m going to set you free….
I’m going to PUSH you the last time…..
© 2018 Charu Gupta and Potpourri of life.