माना दुख पहाड़ सा खड़ा है

माना दुख पहाड़ सा खड़ा है,
माना अंधेरा काली रात सा घना है,
माना निराशा, बेबसी घेरे है,
माना उम्मीद दम तोड़ रही है,
पर मानों, प्रकृति का नियम कड़ा है,
पौ फटेगी और अंधेरा छटेगा,
स्वास है, जीवन है, जीवित हो,
निराशा की ज़मीन पर बारिश गिरेगी,
और आशा का बीज निष्चित उगेगा!

©charu gupta and potpourri of life.

I am blank….

I am blank….

Nothingness enveloped everything

Thoughts vanished without a trace

Calmness never felt so unsettling

Emptiness occupied the mind

I am numb….

Grief diffused into the air

Stationed destinies refuse to change

Confined life clogging to live

Clasped hope kneeled down in fear

But

I am a seed…

Buried deep down in the gloom

Waiting in the endless wait

A drop of water, warmth and the sun

Certainly will shoot up again!

I in the times of this pandemic’s overdose

© 2020 Charu Gupta and Potpourri of life.

 

 

Pass on the HOPE please!

My aunt’s visit to our place became more frequent as the Doctor she needed to see was at an hour’s distance. She had a problem in swallowing food. After a plethora of medicines, therapies and x-rays; finally the Doctor advised to go for biopsy and endoscopy tests.

And the report came- A cancerous malignant tumor at stage IV.

Everything came crashing down, ‘Cancer’ the word that no one wants to hear or accept and here we were holding the piece of truth!

My Aunt was a brave lady; even this disease couldn’t send tremors to her heart. She asked two questions to the oncologist –

Q1- What are the chances?

Q2- How much will be the expenditure?

Composed! Practical and unruffled; she was the rarest of the rare! Perhaps this is why God chose to provide her with such a disease!

Oncologist- Ans 1- I don’t want to give you any false hopes, chances are 20 percent.

Ans2- We have special quota for people who can’t afford the huge expenditure. You just have to arrange about one lac for four chemo.

Aunt- “So you are saying there are 20% chances of my survival”.

Oncologist- “Yes! But we’ll try our best, miracles happen!”

One last question- “How much time do I have if miracle doesn’t happen?”

“Maximum six months!”

Aunt- “20% chance, six months, waiting for a miracle and the chemo! And there is a false hope!”
(I wonder if there’s any difference between ‘hope’ and ‘false hope’)

As I told you my Aunt was a courageous lady; she fought with the fatal disease as a great warrior. She never gave up in life, always kept her spirits high. She never left the hope and the will to live!

My adorable Aunt survived for two years! And in those two years I had never seen an emotion of remorse on her face. She never self-pitied herself and never allowed others to be sympathetic of her condition. Till her last breath she was smiling, chatting (though with great difficulty) and uplifting the spirits of people around.

Hope – A feeling of expectation and desire for a particular thing to happen. (Oxford dictionary)

I hope that I’ll get a promotion this year!

I hope I’ll manage my financial crisis shortly!

I hope my children will do well in life!

I hope to meet my friends soon!

I hope we will move into a new house this year!

I hope my mother will get well soon!

I hope Mamma has cooked my favourite dish today!

Hope is not any assurance or guarantee but it keeps the whole world going. Never ever deprive anyone of it. If you are not able to help a person then at least give him hope. Hope that the miseries are going to end. Hope that everything will be fine; hope to live and hope to be happy!

A heart filled with hope can overcome any hindrance and hope provides us the courage to face each day with positivity and zeal.

Pass on the hope….. because for someone it may be the only thing to survive upon, just like for Johanna of O. Henry’s The Last Leaf!